Don’t stop trying
and then the pens all laugh in unison as the papers dishevel themselves.
I know very little discipline and animated, inanimate, man-made animals.
I pray that the pencils will speak to a wily and sneaky snake but I feel they have already fallen from grace since they are man-made.
I lay out my clothes at night and try not to think of wolves at the door and being late.
Always, always I fear the light, the heat,
the roof will disappear as my parents certainly taught me. It will happen if I did not assert myself.
Thinking of writing,
I’ll be honest there are times I think I cannot tap the keyboard and watch the letters bounce into the dullness of gray weather and me wonder where the Countess Olenska has gone.
Where has the Bohemian gone? The ones who could afford to be poor and fail so admirably?
Oh, the deep cut wit of a slower world and the upper world of who knows what. Certainly, their fountain pens did not talk, their pencils did not lie.
No, of course not.